Collapse is an essential part of spiritual evolution. Enlightenment is a destructive process, an awakening out of a false understanding of self.  It is the complete crumbling away of falsehood.

There are times in our lives when we are ready for the collapse of our psychic infrastructure, when all that has been built on false terms crumbles under the pressure of our longing to liberate the true self.  This can disrupt our relationships, work and daily living.

My life is under renovation right now and I find that I am vacillating between deep uneasiness and profound relief.  I feel I can survive this only by carving time out in my daily life to pause and take a deep in-breath, to observe and allow space for this soul realignment.

The external elements which first catalyzed the collapse are less important now.  When I become still and present they move into the wings, revealing a higher self whom I see has called this meeting to order.

In my meditation, I see that I am halted in a silent mist with only a portion of the path visible before me and a vague understanding of the path behind.  I see myself holding a handful of threads that extend in both directions. I recognize that what has stopped me here has threaded through my life and caused me to stumble many times before.  I feel as though I must pull apart the strands one by one, to know them and follow them back to source.

In my hand, I hold the key to my re-membering.  This forgotten part of the self is a benevolent guide that can lead me forward into deeper reunion with the higher being within me. Pausing and simply allowing myself to look without resistance or judgement is breaking the spell of the mind-created self.