It used to be that my thoughts were largely negative, only I was so desensitized to feeling badly that I did not notice. It began a long time ago as a measure of self-protection… I think. If I were hard on myself, then I would improve. If I thought of what could go wrong, then I would be better prepared…
It was faulty logic that exponentially increased my level of misery and vibrationally conditioned me to become the breeding ground for all the things I did not want.
I have become sensitive again. I dislike the negative reels, replays and play by plays of what might go wrong. I have little tolerance for my own senseless bad news, fixation on painful images, preoccupation with difficult feelings and thoughts that injure my spirit and lower my esteem and confidence.
Through reeducation, self care, practice and reprogramming, I have noticed that what gets air time in these precious 8″ between my ears, has gradually attuned to uplifted thoughts, flirtation with happiness and downright preoccupation with a healthier, more fulfilled life… Hallelujah!
We are now 12 days into our 40-day practice. How is it going for you? Do you care to share what your practice has consisted of and how have you structured it? Has it been difficult to maintain? How do you feel? What do you notice? Please feel invited to share anything you care to.
The past 12 mornings for me have begun by assessing my mental, physical and emotional state, and noting it in my journal. Then I ask myself, ‘What is the higher ground that I would prefer?’ Meaning, how would I rather feel? I name that and record it in my journal.
And then I plunge into some of the most enjoyable moments of my day; the blissful practice of embodying the state of being that I most desire. How near or far I am from it determines how easy or difficult it is for me to make the shift.
The days when I am most distant, I have learned to be a child again imagining myself as I want to be when I grow up. I allow the preoccupation with what it would it feel like to be the one I dream of being.
Imagination yields to feeling better, and then feeling better yields to becoming. It is at that point that I understand that the process is simply recognizing and reclaiming these disowned part of my own nature.